I'm starting to feel like my brain is just a big pile of mush. It feels like it's been so long since I've had an organized and coherent thought. I think one reason for that is that I haven't written any type of academic essay in years. I haven't been forced to be have cogent arguments or write anything with an end goal in mind. I just kind of ramble on (like I am now) and completely lose sight of the original thought that I had that inspired me to start writing in the first place. I think it's especially true of blogging but it seems strange to me to start a blog entry with some kind of outline that I've prepared prior to logging in. It seems as though blogging (at least personal blogs) should be kind of a flow of consciousness and off the cuff because to me, it's supposed to be a documentation of your life, sort of like a time capsule. I guess you can still document your life even with a prepared outline. The problem is probably just that I'm too lazy and I rarely know exactly what I want to say before I start putting fingers to keys. But it seems like some people (repeat offenders) are able to effortlessly write beautiful entries with overarching themes and elements from the beginning of the entry that are referred to at the end. And maybe people are really thinking about their blog posts all day and how to make them flow properly and how to most effectively really the emotion that they're feeling to their audience but I don't see all that preparation and it makes me feel like a bad writer with a brain full of mush that can't relay a coherent sentiment (not that Operation: Double Brothers is really emotion laden) to his readers (few though they may be). This is certainly not a reproach of others; it's really flattery and jealousy.

I really need the mental stimulation of a job.